Thursday, April 29, 2010

Ini entry bagaimana nak menyayangi suami anda

Assalamualaikum...

Tomorrow will mark the first week ever free of exams after months of continuous paper. Exagerrate je months tu.Alhamdulillah, we can go out for our usual dinner date every Thursday nite without worrying bout mountain of notes waiting to be memorized.Its so refreshing to think that i can sleep worries-free tomorrow.Not! Got tonnes of work to do actually.Prepare special breakfast for Amir,then settle the full big bucket of laundries,vacuuming the entire house,mopping the kitchen, mengada-ngada letih kejap ,ironing 5-days shirts and pants for Amir and what not.Dah tak larat nak tulis.I dont even have time to think about shower.Ah i know tomorrow's not a day to pamper myself.Well,at least not for this week.Amir has been pushing his bones and muscles to take care of the house every weekend,since the day i started my first paper.Poor guy,that one.Well people,cari lah suami yang rajennn supaya senang di masa depan.*dengar boleh jangan buat,ksian suami.*That explains why my job as a part time housewife is not that successful.

Ok,sekarang nak cita benda lain.

Once (well maybe twice) people ask me whether my husband is categorized as a romantic person. haha. Unfortunately i didnt get the chance to chat more bout that with them,lupa sebab apa.Sebab takdak masa kot...

Well, to be exact, romantic thing is a bit subjective for me.Now u tell me how to classify a person whether he's romantic or not.If u think that romantic husband brings back home roses every week (hari-hari melampau), giving u surprises almost very day, love u unconditionally, then we're on the same boat. Yes my husband is romantic,at least from my prospective.And that's what that counts, right.

Eventhough i only got roses once or twice during our almost-two-years of marriage,it makes me feel more than enough to be satisfied (even more and more roses will do heheheh).Surprises? Rarely.But i do think that he tried as much as he can to make me happy and satisfied,even with small things like making a cup of tea out of blue at midnight.I love it.Sometimes he tried to please me by washing and clearing the dishes,and by making the bed even I'm the second one to get up in the morning.Maybe some people think that why do I have to bother with such small things,but indeed, it means world to me.

I asked my husband once at the beginning of our marriage,why he didnt show much of his love for me,i complaint of lack of attention and whatnot.(macam budak2 yang mengadu kisah hidup tak sama macam fairytale yg dibaca) and he said to me ..

"tak tunjuk ,tak bermakna abang tak sayang.bagi abang masa,abang cuba....insya Allah"

And now after two years,i can see that he changed so much compared to the past when we're newly wed.He's fulfilling my wishes,slowly.

If you think that being a med student makes my husband's a boring person,i admit that at certain point, he is!Whenever he started focusing on study,u'll be surprise on how much he can concentrate without bothering about his surrounding for as long as he likes! I swear I have to repeat my question 3 times everytime i ask him something while he's studying.Unless the house is on fire,u'll never get his attention.

But still, i love him.

He looks serious and strong outside, but soft deep inside.
He loves to play hide-and-seek.(of course i'm the one seeking)
He hates western food and shopping, but i love both.
He likes tomyam so much,but i cant even have a sip of it.
He loves spending money on unnecessary things,but i'm abit stingy (kot)
......the list goes on...

He completes me. We completed each other.I love u.

Happy upcoming 2nd Anniversary,abang Amir!

Monday, April 26, 2010

Assalamualaikum..

Lama tak tulis kan. Alhamdulillah dah habis midterm selepas sebulan hempas pulas tiap2 minggu exam.Alhamdulillah.. syukur.Boleh rehat sikit dari sebelum ni.Mana nak kejar kuiz, kena soal dengan doktor di klinik dan juga exam tiap2 minggu.Alhamdulillah, lapang dada sikit.Boleh lah nak start study untuk final sikit2. Sikit-sikit lama2 jadi bukit jugak. Persoalannya,cukupkah sebulan untuk 10 subjects? insya Allah where there's a will there's a way.

Alhamdulillah juga hari ni recall untuk patient complete case untuk klinik Perio.Percaya atau tidak, hampir perlukan 4 appointments untuk habiskan scaling dan root planing untuk pesakit ni. Dan dari awal sehingga hampir akhir sem hanya makcik ini sajalah pesakitku. Satu perjalanan yang sangat panjang untuk menghabiskan setiap bahagian mulut pesakit tu.Alhamdulillah,akhirnya mampu juga menarik nafas lega setelah diberi green light oleh doktor untuk dismissed pesakit tersebut.Makcik (patient) tu sangat baik.. siap bawakan buah zaitun dan minyak zaitun sbg hadiah.Kata partner arab, mungkin makcik tu yang buat sendiri minyak tersebut.Lagila rasa terharu.Malu pun ada.Alhamdulillah,ada jugak satu complete case.
Banyak entry yang pending dalam draft sebenarnya,tapi malas nak sambung.Dah lama tak menulis,tangan jadi malas nak menaip...

Bulan April dah nak sampai penghujung,bulan Mei dah nak menjelma.Bulan yang sangat ditunggu,menandakan anniversary dah nak sampai.Pejam celik pejam celik dah hampir 2 tahun kami berkahwin.Alhamdulillah,segala puji kepada-Nya.Amir dikurniakan di kala aku perlukan seseorang untuk menjadi penyokong. Tidaklah bermakna keluarga tak mencukupi,tetapi kehadirannya menambahkan lagi kekuatan untuk teruskan jalan ini.Alhamdulillah..

Menghadapi clinical life bukanlah sesuatu yang mudah. Selalu aku persoalkan kelemahan diri ketika bersendirian,terutamanya ketika berjalan pulang ke rumah.Mengingatkan kelemahan yang dilakukan di klinik, rasa sangat kekurangan diri ni .Mampu kah nak menjadi doktor gigi yang baik? Namun aku bersyukur,Allah ada untuk bagi kekuatan dalam pelbagai bentuk.Diberinya aku suami dan ibu bapa yang tak putus-putus memberi semangat.Amir tak pernah penat untuk mendengar masalah dan kesilapan yang dilakukan, dan juga tak pernah kering idea untuk mengajak aku berfikir mengapa kenapa dan bagaimana nak menguatkan diri,mengingatkan aku mengenai ayat dari surat Ar-Rahman yang menjadi surah yang digemarinya tika mengimami solat - Maka yang mana satu di antara nikmat-nikmat Tuhan kamu, yang kamu hendak dustakan (wahai umat manusia dan jin)? - ayat 13 surah Ar-Rahman.Alhamdulillah,Allah memberi ujian tanda kasih-Nya.Kurangnya satu perkara tak menandakan kita patut melupakan nikmat-nikmat lain yang tak pernah putus dikurnia-Nya.

Tiket untuk pulang ke Malaysia Ramadhan akan datang dah dibeli.Insya Allah,moga Allah permudahkan urusan kami semua.Moga raya kali ni dapatlah aku cium tangan abah mama umi selepas 4 kali raya tak dapat bersama, ditambah pula raya pertama bersama suami di Perlis. Double happiness.Alhamdulillah..


Ni bukan sesaje jalan jali sambil pakai name tag,tapi ni waktu rotation surgery di hospital Jerash.Alang-alang dah sampai sana, pergi lawatan sambil belajar pulak di Jerash.Bila nak p dua orang dengan kite? T-T